Pause and Breathe !!!!!!!!!

Today is one of those days feeling completely lost about what I am doing and where I am going. I feel completely panicked, stressed and confused.And the one who has to bear the brunt of my frustration is my little one. I loose my temper and yell at him when he demands my attention for his needs. After that, the guilt of yelling adds fuel to the already burning fire. I am suffering from the 'Not up-to the mark' syndrome. I have decided to transition to something I like. I was preparing quite well for it. But suddenly I am caught up in this whirlwind of thoughts as to what if I couldn't get into this profile, what if I flunk the exam, what if I fail the interview then, what if they wouldn't open a role for me. So many what-if's and here I am in the midst of chaos, not knowing the right or wrong, sobbing quietly. I am one person who wants to be the best at what I do. I love attention, appreciation,respect and want to be the best in my team. But the mind wants more and I think a change is much needed. The world is changing at a faster pace and I definitely feel there is no scarcity of talent. People are being the best and I don't want to be just a mediocre in what I do. My aim is to be a leader at my organization, to be a person people would look up to, a people's person, a subject matter expert in my field, a keynote speaker at multiple venues. It is time to pause and breathe, reinforce the confidence and challenge the adversities. As Robin Sharma rightly said, You can use your difficult times as platforms of possibility to transform into the hardest, productive person you are destined to be. Wish me good luck !!